Phenobarb

Well

Lexx has officially been put on a mid range dose of Phenobarbitol along with his current "relatively high" dose of potassium bromide. I hate this. I never wanted him on this drug... its so bad for their livers, and dobers have such liver issues anyways.

Of course, I want him to be fine, I want him to stop seizing..but this drug actually makes them act "drugged" for the first while, increasing confusion, making him sleepy... increasing appetite and his need to drink. Why? Why does my beautiful dog have to go through this?

I spent most of saturday not speaking. I was just beyond my ability to cope. I've been having dreams lately about coming home and finding him dead. I haven't slept a full night in at least 6 months, I'm jumpy and irritable and exhausted.

I am wishing that I hadn't enrolled him in this obedience class. I haven't been able to find the energy to practice, its just too frustrating. His leg is getting worse too, he full out limps some days now and looks miserable. Lately, he hasn't even seemed to enjoy his walks as much, though it could be due to the cold.

He has no ability to deal with cold. After a 20 minute walk yesterday he was shaking, teeth chattering and miserable.

I feel like everything is just getting a whole lot worse. He's been such a lovey dog, cuddly and attentive to me lately. He follows me around like he knows that something is wrong.

He looks so guilty when he has an accident, like he knows what he's done has upset his mom, but that he just couldn't help it...

why?